Flash Back to My Past

Preparing for this past weekend was quite the ordeal. My cousin, Chonh was married on Saturday, July 14 to his fiancé Jamie. Though I would like not to admit this, I was very nervous because I was going to see people from my past that I hadn't seen in nearly 13 years; people I went to college with, people I played sports with, relatives, and...yes, my ex. For those who didn't know me back then, let’s just say I looked "different" and I mean "different" in a good way.

Once we made it to the wedding, all of my fears, and thoughts were laid to rest. Not because everyone else had changed in the same way I had but because of my place in life. I looked at my husband and my two girls and realized that my past, the people who helped shape me, and the events that occurred during that time, brought me to the place I am today.

After seeing my ex this past weekend, what I've known for many, many years was confirmed...that God had a much better plan for each of us. Though I did not speak to him during the event, I would like to believe that he also feels the same. I know that I was forever changed for knowing him. The time we shared taught me to define love for myself and not what I learned it to be from movies, love songs and my peers. It taught me that love doesn't just happen but I am an active participant and can choose the person I want to love and let love me. But by far, it taught me what I did not want love to be like and that my worth, my pride, my values, my beliefs do not need to be compromised for love.

What I learned brought me to Kong. I love more deeply than I could have ever imagined and this would not have been possible if I had not learned to define love for myself. All in all, my nerve wrecking weekend turned out to be very emotionally productive. I have nothing but well wishes for my ex and his wife. May the blessings God has and will bestow unto them be overflowing and never ending.